Lyrics:

Been a while since your face was in a place like this
Haven't seen you since that night you acted like I don't exist
Made a pass on you but you just passed me off to someone else
And now I'm someone else's and you wish you had me for yourself

We've both had a lot to drink
Be careful what you start to think
Your eyes are where they shouldn't be
Look up at me
And just tell me

Tell me, why do you only want me when I'm off limits?
You cross that line, not gonna forgive it
Put your mouth near me, you're gonna regret it
What are you not gettin’?
Why do you only want the fruit when it is forbidden?
Keep tellin’ you but you will not listen
Put your hands on me, you're gonna get bitten
What are you not gettin’?

I can see your fingers inching closer to my thigh
But my body’s out of bounds and I know you remember why
You could've been the one to walk me to my bedroom every night
But now the castle walls are up and you are not the one inside

We've both had a lot to drink
Be careful what you start to think
Your hands are where they shouldn't be
Look up at me
And just tell me

Tell me, why do you only want me when I'm off limits?
You cross that line, not gonna forgive it
Put your mouth near me, you're gonna regret it
What are you not gettin’?
Why do you only want the fruit when it is forbidden?
Keep tellin’ you but you will not listen
Put your hands on me, you're gonna get bitten
What are you not gettin’?

Tell me, why do you only want me when I'm off limits?
You cross that line, not gonna forgive it
Put your mouth near me, you're gonna regret it
What are you not gettin’?
Why do you only want the fruit when it is forbidden?
Keep tellin’ you but you will not listen
Put your hands on me, you're gonna get bitten
What are you not gettin’?

Behind the song:

“This song is about a certain type of person who doesn’t see relationships as something to enjoy, but a game to beat someone else at. I’ve had a handful of encounters with people who made strong attempts to ‘steal’ me away from someone else, sometimes being completely disinterested in me until they knew there was someone to compete with. All this shows me is a whole lot of insecurity.

For the production, I went with a sort of funky house style. The lead synth on the drop was really fun to play. The verses are minimalist but the synth sort of paints a picture of a dark club where the story of the song takes place.”

Lyrics:

Your voice is a respite from the noise
Your laugh could break my heart in half
Trading secrets to assuage any doubts
Could you repeat yourself? The wi-fi cut out
Long nights doing everything but fight
Sweet thrills racking up internet bills
But then you go to bed when it's only four
And then it's like you don't exist anymore

It's the same every day
And it's the same thing you say
You're just a phone call away

But am I ever gonna touch you?
Am I ever gonna feel you on my skin?
What is all this building up to?
Are my arms the ones you're gonna end up in?
Cause I can't wait another year to be your lover
I'm already on my knees
Baby I don't wanna die just trying
To get you next to me

I'd rave ‘bout you til I'm in the grave
My friends hear about you all weekend
But to them you're just a photo and a name
No matter what I say it just won't be the same
Daydreams of us riding on jet streams
On board of a flight I can't afford
Who are we kidding with our optimistic smiles?
We're on opposing ends of ten thousand miles

The only way that we'll meet
Is through a speaker and screen
I swear that I don't wanna leave

But am I ever gonna touch you?
Am I ever gonna feel you on my skin?
What is all this building up to?
Are my arms the ones you're gonna end up in?
Cause I can't wait another year to be your lover
I'm already on my knees
Baby I don't wanna die just trying
To get you next to me

Behind the song:

“Growing up using the internet a lot means that I’ve fallen a handful of times into long distance relationships. They can be beautiful things at times, allowing you to find someone based on what you have in common rather than just how geographically close you are. They also have so, so many drawbacks. This song is all about the moment where the silly optimism starts to fade away, and it really sets in that you can’t afford to close the gap. The painful yearning, the missed experiences, the life lived through a glitchy Discord call. Reality hits you like a slap to the face, and suddenly it needs to end.

The soundscape of the song is largely built out of dial tones, painting the feeling of being trapped in a call and glued to a phone you’d rather put down. The drop also has a few little glitches which were really fun to put together.”

Lyrics:

What a life we had written in our calendars
A lifetime of plans if we just pushed through the barriers
What ifs and somedays and safety in our bed
Now my bed’s my own and you sleep in hers instead

We gave it our best
But we ran out of things we could give
You didn't end my life
Just the part that I wanted to live

And so I sit here, waiting
Dreaming, hoping
That you'll say, sorry
Come back, hold me
But that's all in my head
And I just have to let it hurt
I’ll live my own life
While you live our life with her

What a waste of a heart left in waiting
Bathed in regret, silent and contemplating
Gave you my future, now I can't redeem it
What good's a promise if no one will keep it

It's not like things will change
The longer I stare at my phone
There's no other life after this
Just the one where you left me alone

And so I sit here, waiting
Dreaming, hoping
That you'll say, sorry
Come back, hold me
But that's all in my head
And I just have to let it hurt
I’ll live my own life
While you live our life with her
I’ll live my own life
While you live our life with her
I’ll live my own life
While you live our life with her
I’ll live my own life
While you live our life with her

Behind the song:

“I wrote this song after coming out of a very intense and serious relationship, one we’d both planned on keeping alive forever. It ended due to circumstances out of our control, and that didn’t help with closure. Seeing her get into a new relationship was inevitable, but seeing the two of them live out plans we’d made together felt painful in a way I hadn’t prepared myself for. It felt like a mapped out life that I was a part of had suddenly replaced me, and I didn’t know where that left me.

This is the oldest song on the project. There’s a kind of immaturity to it, but it really just comes from a place of desperation and confusion. It’s a very confusing place to be, feeling like you’d become one half of a whole, and then losing the other half that you always expected to have. Committing your whole brain and future to a dream, however irresponsible, and then facing the reality that it’s dead when your brain is trying desperately to not let that be true. It’s a very vulnerable and personal song, but one I’m proud of.”

Lyrics:

We once were one
But the tapestry we made came undone
Now you live your life
In the negative spaces between mine

Mmmm
Mmmm
Time changes all

We shared a bed
But I never knew what was in your head
Sleeping side by side
But the space between us was a mile wide

I used to recognise your breath
But now I barely even know your face
And that's for the best
You used to live inside my head
Now I never even say your name
And that's how it ends

Mmmm
Mmmm
Mmmm
Mmmm

I used to recognise your breath
But now I barely even know your face
And that's for the best
You used to live inside my head
Now I never even say your name
And that's how it ends

Behind the song:

“Time is such a weird thing. Sometimes you’ll think about someone and realise that this person who was at the front of your mind for so long, this person that was the most important person in your life for a while, is all but gone from your mind. It’s bizarre, but comforting.

This was the last song I made for the EP, only writing and producing it a couple weeks before the project came out. I really enjoy how it came together and it’s been stuck in my head a lot.”